Is this thing on? 🎤
As a Mercurial babe, there’s something extremely liberating about having your own space to dump your thoughts, feelings and ideas. I think that’s a big reason why I started my first blog, Vintage Steez at the age of 14 — I need an outlet to express my fashion opinions, so I taught myself Photoshop, some coding, and got to work. Like literally, it was a job before a job because this is what Capricorn placements do as a child, right? Little did I know that it would lead me to being an editor of Thugpop Magazine, a short-lived passion project founded by my best friends and I during our fashion school years, interning at my favorite publications like Nylon and CR Fashion Book during college, to securing my own column at Zora Magazine and now Ayesha Curry’s Sweet July Magazine. A dream, honestly. And even though I’ve been writing my entire life, the last few years have either been through the voice of another platform or mostly spiritual content.. and I’m just sooooo not a Deepak Chopra ass bitch. I may have my moments, but yeah.. that ain’t exclusively me.
When I think about who I was 10 years ago, a fiery shit-talking fashion, art, music, and beauty beauty obsessed virgin (who would remind you every chance I had *cringeeeee*) I miss that girl. I miss being unfiltered, freely popping my shit on the internet and using my blog to connect dots in fashion and culture in a thoughtful and innovative way. I have to admit, as my platform grew, like a hedgehog, I kind of balled up into my safe space. I felt less compelled to share my opinions and ideas because the replicating and overt identity theft got out of fucking control. So many sons, yet so little royalties to show for it! But, I also think that subconsciously I was waiting to be seen and valued by my coveted industries. I wanted to see recognized by my favorite pubs, in hopes they’d recognize the gem that I am and fucking hire me. Like, what wasn’t clicking? I deserved to be paid for my intellect and it just wasn’t working in my favor.
It’s so crazy how life works sometimes. I quit the fashion industry in 2018 after feeling undervalued.. to be a diviner and healer.. to then realize my purpose has always been related to intertwining both. I didn’t have to choose, so that’s what’s led me here. So, here I am. But this isn’t a magazine. Shit, I honestly don’t even know what this is. Maybe this is a practice in me actively manifesting my lifelong editor dreams and rekindling that spark.
I have this plan to make it a quarterly newsletter with a more structured format including fashion predictions, my inspirations and current favorite things.. but who knows where this will take me. I’m happy you decided to join me on the ride, though! If you’ve been rocking with me over the years, then you should know I’m never afraid to pivot— I’m led by Spirit, always. I don’t know how long this will last, but let’s ride the wave together.
In the meantime in between time, let’s just call it a place where you get the real me, without the hashtags and the filtering. My thoughts, feels, what I’m feeling, what I’m not.
If you’re looking for regular reads and spirituality content, this ain’t the place. We’ll dabble here and there, but my spiritual hub, House of Ayida.
The Hot Honey Line is my psychic text hotline that gives you access to my reads nearly daily.
My initial intent was that this newsletter would be for you, my community, but something is telling me that this is going to be really cathartic for me. So, cheers to rekindling childhood passions and new explorations!Â
I’d love to hear your thoughts along the way,too, so be sure to comment and let me know what’s on your mind and what you may want to see or hear from me. Until then..
Stay Sweet,
Amber